Dec 22 2008
Cold, scared and swamped
It’s literally -1 degree out here, and the wind chill is even worse. The dog is refusing to go to the bathroom outside. I’d like to believe that she just has a very strong bladder, but somehow I think that’s not the case. Anxiety has been rough today too. It seems like the longer I go without difficult periods of anxiety, the worse it is when I do get anxious. It’s like a whole new feeling that I have to get used to again. All my therapy techniques seem to fly right out of my head, although I do my best to remember them. I want to finish work early tonight and go to bed early. I think that holiday stress is contributing to my anxiety.
Work is also stressful, both my real job and ChaCha. My real job has just been a disaster, I can’t find my desk, my clients are all nuts, and some of my co-workers are driving me up a wall. At least with ChaCha I know the questions will be crazy and I don’t have any co-workers who are in the same house. That being said, I’m getting stuck in the position of not being able to make Top Guide this week due to my schedule. I think that’s pretty unfair. But I’m going to try for Top Guide, which means that tonight, instead of going to bed early, I’ll be doing the ChaCha. Ugh.
